joshwuzhere

Dazed and confused, where are you? Where am I? What am I doing? I don't know what to do with you. I don't know what to do without you. I am spinning around in circles until I pass out cold on the floor where my darkest nightmares drag me under the bed where they can do as they please. Maybe if I change myself it'll all go away. I hoped so. That's not how it turned out. I just dug my grave a little deeper. I'm standing here waiting for you to push me and get it all over with. This is not what I wanted. Either way someone loses. Its not even that big of a deal is it? We're young, looking, and unsure. I'm not sure what all

if only i could sew them together into a beautiful quilt laced with nitroglycerine to keep in all the things i hold dear to me. I'll string it up on the wall by the thinnest threads i could find. hanging in sweet balance waiting to be disturbed. i'm raising the brick shroud around my mind to keep the wondering thoughts from coming in and wreaking havoc among all the little things that maybe are doing a little okay for once. why must i get like this? every time he comes around my eyes burn with demonic rage and my mind tells me that i should be the one there beside you until the wee hours of the night fall upon us. talki

i think i might punch a wall hard enough to shatter my bones into thousands of fragments that will tear my skin apart from the inside out. your words pierce through me like red hot metal. you continue to speak and it's as if the metal melts away and flows through me, burning at my soul. i was fine where i was, but you pushed me off the highway and onto a different road, where the choice was now mine; i could now go anywhere i wanted, but i'm banging my head on the dashboard without a clue. you're not here to take the ride with me, you're a destination. i'm not even ready to take the trip. i wish i could turn back, but you beat the bridge to

the moment we met i was unsure of who you were. to me you were just a person behind words in countless emails. i wrote you off, just another out of the crowd. i felt nothing. as time went by i got to know you more and more. even though it matters not, i wish i hadn't judged you. you are an ocean and i am an anchor. i am drawn to you, my soul is being dragged to the bottom. i lie awake in bed wishing you were here with me. really, i am just waiting for the darkness of sleep to take over so i won't have to think about you anymore. you haunt my best dreams, and bring joy to my greatest nightmares. i wish... i don't know what to do

On the first day of school a young shy girl walked into her english class and sat down in the back row, away from the excited and hyper kids coming back from summer upfront. After the room filled up and the bell rang a tall skinny boy rushed in the door embarrassed and confused. He immediately sat down in the nearest desk, right beside Joe, the meanest guy in the school and he gave the new boy such a glare he got up and moved to an empty desk in the back. As he hurriedly sat down a piece of paper fell from his pocket. She quietly bent over and picked it up and handed it to the boy. He grabbed it and turned his attention to the teacher calling

I can’t think of a single time, That without you-I’d be fine. Everyday I’d need you there, To love and to care-for me. The only way I’ll survive Is with you by my side. I wish I was in your embrace, If only you could see my face           As I say this. I was wrong and you were right, It wasn’t worth the fight. You had the potential to be, The perfect man for me. All I could do was act on impulse, I didn’t think it through. So how can I say this, I love you. I took for granted what I had, And that always turns out bad. I take a few steps away from you, I can think of everything I want to do.